Teetering, teetering, so close to screaming

and I just don't know what to do anymore

So many options, no clear path to anything

I just don't know what I want anymore

Please, oh God help me

I'm lost in the marshlands

of imagination

sweatshop education

every step on my sinking trajectory

feels like I live in my own daytime comedy

breaking the fourth wall and hearing the laugh track

oh, look at the camera 'cause it's just behind me

do I marry this boy?

do I study in Brighton?

do I trust that I'm making good choices on everything?

I know that I'm not and

I know that I never will

I am a sinner

and screaming would just hurt my throat

it would rouse the neighbours

and you know that the last thing I want is to wake them

so I'll just stay quiet

and writhe on the inside

agony over my life and my chosen path

where are You, God?

where do You want me to go?

do You still love and forgive me

through all that I've done?

every corner I've taken

every step away from You

and still You wait

I can run till I drop

I can run, I can't stop

I can think, I can cry,

oh I'll think till I die

it's the one thing I know I can do near half decently

please Lord stop me thinking

I'm overreacting

and how can You love me?

How can You care for me?

I'm crazy, I'm cracking,

I'm screaming, I'm shattering,

I'm scared and I'm helpless

and yet I just won't stop screwing up

blaming myself for the things that I do

'cause there's no one else to blame for them

how can You love a person like me?

so many doors

so many of them open

but it's like I've completely forgotten

how to take the first step

how to choose which door

am I simply petrified of all the doors closing?

how do I walk again

without being afraid of the fall

that I just know is coming

Lord take my feet

and show them the path

teach me how to walk again

'cause I can't do this on my own